you changed my life

one of the few movies that can make you smile and cry at the same time..

laida magtalas: she's willing to give up everything and anything for the love of her life.. tried to understand everything in the name of love.. patience became her friend in her struggle to make their relationship work and surpass the changes.. she loves miggy montenegro so much, she came to a point that she felt miggy is already being unfair to her..

miggy montenegro: without doubt, he loves laida.. he tried to show that love in every possible way he could.. but he's so pressured in his new work that sometimes he makes sarah feel taken for granted.. he's trying his best to be a good son, brother and at the same time boyfriend, but for him it seems that his best is always not enough.. anyway, i love the surprises he prepared to make sarah smile..

my favorite line and the most important lesson i learned in watching this movie:

"sa pagmamahal, hndi dapat nagsusukatan.. kc kung lahat ng tao magsusukat, wala ng magmamahal.. laging sobra o laging kulang..."
- macoy (rayver cruz)

worried

im sleepy but needs to stay up for kuya.. i was supposed to go to sleep about 11pm but i got a text from kuya (yes, he's just in the other room), he's asking me to get him water (he was feeling sick since this morning).. so hurriedly, i got up, though im really2 sleepy na since i'm so tired cleaning the house for mama.. when i hand him the water, i felt like napaso ako sa kanya.. my gosh, he's really hot and he's face is red in color already.. i checked his temperature and got 40+.. i got panic and asked mama to wake up.. i went to the kitchen, grabbed an icebag and gave it to kuya.. i also got cold water and face towel to rub on kuya's neck and arms.. mama asked me to call cheskie and ask her what's right to do, if we should already bring kuya to the hospital.. i woke up cheska and she advised to continue the cold compress and then try to make kuya sweat, if kuya's temp will stay on 40 or above, bring him to the hosp.. luckily after doing what she said, kuya's temp went down (but just a few lines).. it's still high so i need to stay awake until 2 to give him paracetamol and monitor his temp.. i just hope kuya will be better tomorrow.. its mama's birthday na..

i miss my apartment

mama is coming home today from her brunei vacation.. of course, to show her that we can take care of the house while she's not here, we cleaned the house and also did the laundry.. im so tired that i fell asleep after lunch.. i dreamt of my apartment in luzon.. hmm.. i actually cried when i wake up, i realize that i miss it so much.. its not the perfect apartment in a perfect location, but i love that place sooo much..

♥ i miss shopping for things we use in the house
♥ i miss cleaning it
♥ i even miss the gate and stairs leading to the unit
♥ i miss the big bed
♥ i miss cooking breakfast and fried stuff
♥ i miss my cute appliances
♥ i miss the happy feeling whenever i'm able to buy new appliances or new things
♥ i miss eating in my small table
♥ i miss watching tv there
♥ i miss going home by midnight, sleeping by 1 or 2 am, waking up by 5am to cook breakfast, sleeping again by 9 or 10am, waking up by 4 to prepare for work
♥ i miss the 10 minute tricycle ride to get there
♥ i miss doing the groceries
♥ i miss puregold cmw
♥ i miss inviting my wavemates to hang out, drink or just have someone to talk the whole night to
♥ i miss the street i used to walk on
♥ i miss doing the budget (bills, rent, groceries)
♥ i miss my neighbors
♥ i miss washing clothes (by hand)
♥ i miss the surprises i get after work
♥ i miss everything about it =(

i hate sipon

huhu.. i should have known better.. it already crossed my mind that i will get sipon from cheskie.. but i didn't take my vitamins.. haaay.. i had a wonderful monday plan.. me and cheskie was supposed to go to la mesa eco park.. well, i wanted to go there to take pictures of the place, i've seen a lot of nice pics from the net.. i also want to try the boating, fishing, wall climbing, zip line and all the activities there.. but no no, i got stocked in the house last monday because of this shit sipon which i always hate.. sipon for me is not just the simple sipon.. i don't remember any instance that i got sipon without headache, fever and body pains..

i also wanted to have bonding moments with cai and malen.. we were supposed to have overnight at malen's place.. huhu.. sayang pamimilit ko.. argggh.. sino ba kasi naka-imbento ng gantong skit.. =(

some love quiz results

Your Heart is Feeling Open

You have no idea where your love path leads, but you're looking forward to the journey. For you, love as an adventure. While you may get hurt, that's the risk you have to take. You are receptive to any love or relationship that may come your way. You can't predict love! Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Anything... both good and bad. Your current outlook on love: Free spirited and flexible Your love life will improve if you: Protect yourself a little. You don't have to be open to every romantic experience. Watch out for: Treating love as a game

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

Your Love is Based on Affection

Your need for love is very primal and basic. You can't imagine living without love. And for you, love is something that's best expressed through touch. You're always up for a hug or a cuddle. And you feel a bit rejected when you don't get enough affection. Whether you're sharing a blanket or sharing an order of fries, you thrive when you're close to the person you love. Why your love can last: You express your love freely and frequently Why your love can fail: You can come off as clingy, and this freaks people out

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

You Are Flirtatious

You are outgoing, talkative, and incredibly social. You love swapping stories and jokes. You're optimistic and enthusiastic. You're both good at being a cheerleader and at cheering people up. You are a very charming person. You make connections easily, and you love harmless flirting. Sometimes your charm can turn against you. People tend to think you're a better friend than you actually are.

missing my phone

yes, im missing my phone, its about two weeks now since its camera won't recognize the open lens and always prompt the user to open its lens to be able to take pictures.. i always love my phones but the phone i'm talking about is my favorite of all the phones i had.. papa gave it to me after he saw me using a very old phone.. as always adrian was the one who picked it for me.. it was a great choice really.. although at first, i don't like its brown color (too formal for me), its camera made me fall in love with that phone.. its like having a digital camera everywhere you go.. taking shots after another.. i adore the picture quality and additional settings of the camera.. i remember, i even dared adrian that my phone takes better pictures than his new samsung (5MP) camphone.. and true enough, we took shots of the same scene and my pictures look better then his shots.. haha.. oooh, i really miss the phone... i hope sony ericson would be able to fix it as soon as possible..

anyway, these are some of my favorite shots using my phone..

super cute baby in bus from pampangga..

isang pader sa trinoma.. i was just supposed to take a picture of the wall but when i positioned my phone, i realized that the carpet + wall is cute..

ang sm at c cheska.. haha.. i mentioned in my first post that i want to be able to visit all the sm in the philippines.. so far i got, sm north (of course), sm makati, sm manila, sm san lazaro, sm marilao, sm pampangga (my favorite), sm marikina, sm baliwag, sm clark, sm mega mall, sm lipa, sm fairview, sm mall of asia, sm valenzuela.. hope to see more..

i love taking pictures of the sun, sky and coconut trees.. someday, i want to take a super perfect shot of those three..

black and white is my favorite effect..

visited tita sonia's place last december.. while papa and his cousin were talking, i went to their small garden and found out that flowers look prettier closed up..

cheska and me.. =)

Cute Car

saw this car while we were in greenhills.. its super cute.. hehe..

since my phone is still in sony ericson for repair, i'm back at using my old small digicam for taking pictures of random things or scenes that i feel the urge to take a snap at..

lian

-cute-talented-pretty-sweet-intelligent-

LIFE -> CS

juat a repost from my old blog..

ang buhay parang program, klangan maisip mo kung anong tamang algo para maachieve ung mga specs.. xempre dapat ayos lang din ang time complexity ng napili mong algo, kundi mapag-iiwanan ka..

ang isang pangyayari, pag-uugatan ng iba pang mga susunod na kabanata.. parang binary tree.. pero dapat maayos ang mga pointers mo, para kaya mo xang itraverse pabalik at malaman kung anong root ng mga bagay-bagay..

kapag paulit2 na lang ang mga nangyayari sa buhay mo, infinite loop na yan.. kelangan mo ng gamitan ng pagttrace at watches yan.. one step at a time lang.. dahan-dahan.. para malaman kung san may mali.. para malagyan ng tamang value ang mga variables sa buhay mo..

minsan naman, nagpapanic tayo agad dahil ayaw mangyari ung gusto natin, eh ang simple lang naman pla ng mali.. parang syntax error lang ayaw ng magcompile.. pero wag din masyadong matuwa kung nagcompile na, minsan kc ayaw pa ring gumana non.. kung baga sa buhay, tama naman ung ginagawa mo pero parang kulang pa rin..

pero hinay2 lang ha, kc pag sumobra ka naman, bka mamaya ma-index-out-of-bounce ka naman.. o kaya naman null pointer assignment at lalo nang hindi nagcompile ang buhay mo..

meron lang tlgang mga bagay na hindi pwedeng madaliin.. hndi katulad ng isang mp na kayang gawin overnight kasama ng mga frends mo.. tipong kelangan muna ng matinding pagpla2no.. in cs language: mawindang ka muna sa pagddrawing ng UML at ERD.. bago ang totoong execution..

sundin na lang natin lahat ang golden rule sa CS: resist the urge to code.. magplanong mabuti para hndi mahirapang magcompile.. =)

Cai

Cai, i can say is my very first friend in college.. Our friendship started even before the first day of our college life.. We've been exchanging messages in friendster.. and may i just quote
her first message in friendster..

...wala nga rin akong kilala sa department

natin e!!ikaw palang sa ngayon.

sana maging friends tayo...as in real friends and

not just with-wired-communication-only friends!

... ang dami kong knukwento no?

alam mo,kapag nakilala mo ko sa

personal,mapapraning ka saken kasi sobrang daldal

ko!!!hehehe!!

i don't know if its destiny or what.. but even though i didn't have the same math schedule as they have (which at that time determines what block u belong), we ended up being "blockmates".. and true enough, we became friends.. as in real friends as we wished.. hehe..

little that they know, cai is the culprit to why i have the nickname "melai" for college.. she's the first one to call me melai.. maybe she got it from my email ad (melai_0287).. and so she thought that was my nickname.. but no, she just got me a new one when she screamed "melai, ako si erica! sa friendster!" during the first day of class..

cai and i have been the closest of friends and we also had a taste of what it is to be "enemies".. yes, i think the fight lasted for a year or so.. for the details of the misunderstanding, i really don't want to remember and up to this day, i think its still not clear as to where and why it started.. haha..

but i guess its true when they say, true friends will remain friends whatever happen.. right now, she's one of the few people i treasure the most and hold closest to my heart..

so how did i celebrate my valentines?

alone in the house..
fried bacon for lunch and dinner..
ate alone..
had a date with my laptop..
shed some drops of tears..

i know it will not be a grand celebration.. i know we'll not be able to celebrate long enough..

i just wanted to see at least a little effort from you.. in fact, a simple letter or even one sweet text will do..

valentine's day trivias

♥ To My Lady, With Love The first Valentine card known to history was sent by Charles, Duke of Orleans, to his wife in 1415. Charles was surely missing his wife. He was in the Tower of London at the time!

♥ Amongst the earliest Valentine's Day gifts were candies. The most common were chocolates in heart shaped boxes.

♥ A love knot is a symbol of undying love, as its twisting loops have no beginnings or ends. In olden times, they were made of ribbon or drawn on paper to prove ones eternal love.

♥ In the middle Ages, people believed that the first unmarried person of the opposite sex you met on the morning of St. Valentine's Day would become your spouse.

♥ Teachers receive the most Valentine's Day cards, followed by children, mothers, wives, and then, sweethearts. Children between ages 6 to 10 exchange more than 650 million Valentine's cards with teachers, classmates, and family members.

♥ Wearing a wedding ring on the fourth finger of the left hand dates back to ancient Egypt, where it was believed that the vein of love ran from this finger directly to the heart.

♥ Alexander Graham Bell applied for his patent on the telephone, an "Improvement in Telegraphy", on Valentine's Day, 1876.

♥ The most beautiful and incredible gift of love is the monument Taj Mahal in India. Built by Mughal Emperor Shahjahan as a memorial to his wife it stands as the emblem of the eternal love story. Work on the Taj Mahal began in 1634 and continued for almost 22 years and required the labor of 20,000 workers from all over India and Central Asia.




happy valentine's day everyone!

Malen

We've met during our first year in college.. We've been through a lot of things together, saw our love life changed, seen the best and the worst of each other, shared happy moments, wiped tears, learned from each other and grow with each other..

Birds of the same feather flock together? or Opposites attract? i really don't know.. we shared a lot of things in common but we're also different in a number of ways.. She's very sporty, i'm the girly girly one.. She hates kakanin, I can eat a whole bilao of it.. She's learning how to cook, I can only fry.. she hates dancing, i can spend the night doing just that.. but we both love to eat, shop for clothes, coffee, mang-okray, magrelax and according to her, we practically think the same for about three quarters of everything..




Our friendship has gone a long way (even literally)..

i love you sis!

Unica Hija

i'm the only girl in my family but never in my life (as far as i can remember) that i ha wished for a sister.. i'm really happy to be the unica hija.. hehe.. i remember when i was a little child, there's only one way to make me cry, and that's to joke me about having a little sister..

although i didn't get to have a sister (thank God), my brothers are more than enough to make me feel complete and happy.. i must say that their characters are completely opposite.. but i love them just as much..

KUYA is the perfect kuya in the whole wide world.. ok, if you say that nobody is perfect, then he's next to being perfect.. my friends sometimes get envy because i have a kuya like him.. he's sometimes masungit, but he's very kind and generous..

mama told me that when i was less than one year old, i cried.. kuya (less than 2yo) went to me and tried to give me the milk he's drinking, just to stop me from crying.. until now, i'm still touched everytime i remember that story..

Adrian here is my little brother, but he's always mistaken as my kuya.. he's the wacky one, he never fails to make me laugh.. He may always joke around but he can get very protective sometimes.. hehe.. he's also very malambing.. he has that special charm that words cannot explain..

My tears fell while i was watching the surprise video for my debut, right when I heard him say that I'm the best ate.. =)

25 Random Things About Melai

Because my ever dearest sister malen tagged me, I'm starting a new blog to have a place to respond to her tag.. (see sis, that's how much i love you.. hehe).. Also, i think there are many experiences happening in my life that after a few years from now, i want to read back my posts and remember how i felt/thought then.. So what better way to start a new blog than to write 25 things about myself..
1♣ my nicknames: for family-aileen, for hs friends-melissa, for college friends-melai. i'm actually thinking if i'll develop a new nickname for work

2♣ my family and closest friends are my strength and at the same time my weakness.. i couldn't think of anything that i won't be able to do for them

3♣ i'm spoiled by my older brother and i spoil my younger brother.. fair enough..

4♣ i love my collection of dangling earrings.. though i don't wear them often nowadays..

5♣ i'm gaining weight right now and i hate myself for not being able to overcome food temptations..


6♣ i can even eat a half gallon of ice cream, straight.



7♣ i have a weird collection of things i tried but can't keep on using.. when i was in grade2, i beg papa to buy me an organ.. when i finished grade school, he bought me another one.. then during highschool, i literally cried for a guitar.. used it for one year then i stopped just because long nails and playing guitars don't match..

8♣ lately, i just realized that i'm on my way to being able to open my own gym.. when i first realize that im gaining weight, i asked papa to buy me an abs sculptor, it was so hard to use that i stop using it after one week.. next to that, i again gave exercise another shot by having a threadmill.. for this one, i blame acads for not being able to use it often.. and finally, last december, me and kuya asked a stationary bike for Christmas.. this latest addition to my "collection" is my personal favorite (for now)..

9♣ i used to have my star collection.. talk about my room filled with glow in the dark stars..

10♣ if i will have a chance to study another course, i will definitely study bs psychology.. i want to know why things are happening and why people are reacting in different ways..

11♣ i reward myself after a hell week or whenever i think i've achieved something

12♣ i believe that happiness is the key to success.. you need to be happy in what you're doing to achieve great results.. smiling makes everything at least a little better..

13♣ when it comes to acads, i can be soooo masipag but also soooo tamad.. depends on the subject and sometime on the prof..

14♣ sir quiwa taught me to study hard.. to study reeally hard.. also he taught us the most important rule in programming "resist the urge to code"..

15♣ i miss wearing skirts and shorts..

16♣ i actually hate the question "can you tell me more about yourself"

17♣ i never had a relationship that lasted for just less than a year.. its always, one year and n months..

18♣ i can't live without my cellphone

19♣ i want to learn more about photography.. taking pictures is one way of relaxation for me..

20♣ weird as it may sound, i want to visit all the sm in the philippines.. haha..

21♣ i hate wasting my time.. i hate waiting especially if i have more important things to do..

22♣ i dream of becoming sooo rich that i can retire by the age of 40 and travel to different countries..

23♣ my clothes can be sorted out in just 5 colors: blue, pink, green, black and white

24♣ melai had a hard time thinking about 25 random things about herself

25♣ there are only.. hmmm.. maybe 5 persons that know me completely.. without secrets and pretentions..